small wins

Today i just bought a new dental equipment.. my periapical xray. YEYYYY
I couldnt believe it I cried when it sunk in..

I remember the day I first opened my clinic doors. No one came in.

I thought that was the worst day of my life. then 2 months after opening my clinic, pandemic happened. I had to close for 2 months or 3 months, i think. everything stopped..(what could be worse than this?) except my bills. they keep coming lol, and my hunger they too kept coming. HAHAHA -- ahh yung bills, yung due date oo di natatapos eh pala ung exciting part hahahuhu.


During those two years, I endured the most uncertain days of my life. 
Seryoso it's like a boss level sa rpg game that I cannot finish. siguro I shed the most tears last 2020 and 2021. But then I got out Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger (lol kanye yarn hahaha totoong what can't kill you can only make you stronger HAHA). 
skl i was so close to ending my life. sobrang dark na ng thoughts ko everything was so dark and i felt so alone. It came to a point na akala ko walang tutulong sakin kundi ako lang, everything was so heavy. ambigat na ng lahat. gusto ko na lang mawala para matapos na. PERO, I called on the right person (person ba or being? haha) I remembered there's God. 
kasi siguro masyado na ako bilib sa sarili ko na i have been handling all my problems alone na akala ko, ako lang i Forgot na there's God. that God is with me every step of the way. Through the good and the bad God has always been there. Exactly nung moment na bibigay na ako... God saved me. shocks naiiyak ako. hahaha. kasi true naman. when I realized na hindi ako magisa andito si God, andito lang sya im just too busy minding myself kaya hindi ko napansin na He's been with me lang like ever since. And nug narealize ko yun... Everything changed. I started to count my blessings. I became more grateful with whatever I have. I started to appreciate the little things. and since then, life's easier. hindi naman sa hindi na ako nagkaproblem siguro since i trust God and i lift everything to God na, i know na everything will be fine. I focused more on the things i can control rather than the things I cannot. ayun ang haba na ng litanya ko.

Basta looking back pag iniisip ko lahat dati naiiyak talaga ako hindi ako makapaniwala. and naintindihan ko why I had to go through where ive been through. Hindi pa ako successful. this is just the beginning, But with God I know i can do all things possible.

SO ayun nga i just bought my periapical xray and im so ecstaticccc. TYL talaga!!! 

"Matthew 19:26, ESV With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible"

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